“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
― Eckhart Tolle

I let toxic feelings
take me,
down to their
ghostly lair.
seas were rising,
trapping me in
pits of despair.
I met a horde of emotions,
in locations where
dreams have died.
I reasoned with them,
in solitude,
till I saw a change in the tide.
The quagmire of doubt
had consumed me
and my thoughts had run wild.
I went back
to the very beginning,
when I was just a child.
I allowed myself
to mourn the loss
of what I’d hoped to be.
Loosening the chains
of bondage,
I cut down the malignant tree.
I saw
radiance within me,
deep inside my soul.
Words tattoed
on my heart,
a grace I could not control.
I may again sojourn
in dark dungeons,
when my pain body revives.
In the meantime
the yoke will loosen,
confining memoirs
to the archives….

A Soliloquy

do over
“I celebrated your joy, I promise, I did.
While into darkness, my afflictions slid.
Through pain and tears I heard applause.
I gleaned the cheers, I read the scores.
I glimpsed delight with visceral sight.
In my mind’s eye it still alights.
I’m sorry, so sorry for my shame.
I really am, let me try again?
If only I’d supped that warm embrace,
just for a moment, a sublime place!
In misery I’ve been submerged.
Stolen joy where despair converged.
Shame is more deadly than death.
Its venom steals my very breath.
I’m going beyond the outer edges
to acquire my own forgiving lenses.
When I emerge I pray I’ll  be free.
Somewhere, somehow, it’s my decree!”


Lessons from the fire

“Where there is ruin, there is hope for a treasure.”
Jalaluddin Rumi

fire 2
An ailing soul
absorbed by fear

Her past consumed
with morbid years

Future bleak
all hope devoid

Life no longer
being enjoyed

 Powerlessness taught
her surrender

The touch of nature
healing and tender

 In gratitude she
welcomed each day

Mindfulness melted
despair away

Accepting at last
what life had given

Reflections of love
her true religion

A Power greater
restored her to sanity

The divine within
became her reality

Sacred shifts in her
heart and mind

 Her inner being
was redesigned