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this year

May all that has been reduced to noise in you become music again.”
 — David Teems.


I’m going to write my own memes
rework my own prose,
be attentive to silence
and go with the flow.

I’m going to wrestle with my own truths
without a closed mind,
believe in my own magic
and light my own fire.

I’m going to find my own joy
in places of renewal,
set my own style
with no need for approval!

I’m going to narrate my own story
use my own words,
remember the anthems
acknowledge the unheard.

I’m going to love myself more
keep surrendering with grace,
surrounded by kindness
I’ll know heaven’s embrace.

I’ll be more forgiving
of myself
and others,
laugh a little louder
have more fun with color.

I’m going to dance to my own tune
listen more to my soul,
sit with the wise
and let love make me whole.

I’m going to set my own sails
on this journey of faith,
hug every tree
and in forests, I’ll bathe.

I’m going to listen to more music
be carried away
with delight.
daydream by day
and keep watch by starlight.

I’m going to let the moon speak to me
when the skies are clear,
feel the measurements
of what is sincere.

Be at peace with myself, as well as all beings
expand my vision
into new ways of seeing.

I’m going to relearn the history
of this present age,
open my heart
and be willing to change.

I’m going to grow old with gratitude (hopefully)
allow the silent to speak,
gather with peacemakers
hold hands with the meek.

I’m going to let children teach me
try to keep up with their trends,
live with integrity
and see through their lens.

I’m going to unburden my sorrow
give credence to my grief,
believe I am worthy
and true to my belief.

I’m going to swim in more oceans
walk the way of the brave,
encourage the weary
until the end of my days…

I’m going to fall more easily onto my knees,
on merciful grounds
that absorb my unease…

I’m going to try anyway…

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Distractions…Part one

“Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.”
― Rumi

I’ve been distracted by worries
set upon by lies
held in lack of faith
I couldn’t read the skies…

Brooding in silence
I could not envision joy
all that was visible was
a darkened void!

so I spoke to the darkness to all who could hear
and I asked them quietly to take away these fears…

They showed me light and love,
they brought me flowers,
so I bent with them in worship
in bright sunlight hours…

faithless hysteria had sapped my strength
kept me captive
had stolen my breath…

to be continued…

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Trick or treat?

Stevie made his Grim Reaper costume from an old sheet…

Halloween has never been a big celebration for us here in South Africa,
but one year the kids wanted to do “trick or treating” in the neighborhood.
So they dressed up in homemade costumes and ventured out.
It wasn’t long before they came screaming back.
Apparently, there was a suspicious man in a house at the top of the road,
and instead of “treat” he wanted “trick”.
They didn’t even know what that meant, but he looked funny
and his house was dark inside.
I think they had watched too many “haunted house” movies… 

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La luna

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart.
live in the question.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

It’s been dark and I can’t see my way out
I’ve lost too much
that I can’t get back

And I’m wallowing just for a time, until the pain passes.
if you ask me if my eyes are dry
they are not
I woke up that way!

And sometimes
just sometimes
I need to kneel deeply in the mire of grief

And let sorrow slosh around me
until even the tips of my fingers feel pain

But I promise you
I’ll grow back with the sunset
I’ll be touched again by the trees,
and I’ll keep reminding myself
that there is a brighter tomorrow…

Because the moon in all her situations
found me
at 3am!

©AllysoAlly2021

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Faithless…

“Try, as best you can, not to let
The wire brush of doubt
Scrape from your heart
All sense of yourself
And your hesitant light.”
― John O’Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

They hung their heads
in surrender
in a world full of doubt,
never believing
that there
could be
an end to the drought!
Faithlessly
they bowed down,
before a silent earth,
anticipating
miracles,
hoping for rebirth…
tears poured on soft grounds
they sang
salvation’s song,
and in the midst
of suffering,
they remembered that they
were strong!

©AllysoAlly2021

Some days it feels as though there is no light at the end of the tunnel
and I bow in surrender, more than in worship.
I’m feeling faithless in a world that seems to be loosing hope!

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What dreams may come…

“Perhaps the way of things always existed in a greater way,
so it’s not about discovering something new about God
it’s about returning to what was already known.”⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
-Kryon⠀

One day I’ll tell you my dreams
of when the Time Lords gathered,
when love was in our eyes
and faith really mattered…

When I could see clearly
into the depths
of water-coloured seas,
and life was not fearful
and humans where
completely free!

Sometimes I go back to the habitation
of my dreams,
to endless sunsets,
where joy intervenes…

Maybe I’ll return some day
and you’ll be reimagined,
and grace will be abundant,
no more will I be saddened.

and all my tears
will become
as crystalline dew,
love will be immeasurable,
my faith in life renewed.

To walk forever
with only beautiful thoughts,
and be sheltered in eternity,
with only love as my source…

But for now I’ll listen
to the quiet voice within,
surrender to this presence
closer than my skin…

©AllysoAlly2021

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Taught by nature!

“I want to be with those who know secret things or else alone.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke

I was taught by nature
to silently be,
guided by light
to inwardly see,
and I learned
earth’s fluency
from mystical treasures,
born in the depths
of love unmeasured…

In the mire
of suffering
I found my voice,
in death’s dark place
I discovered joy,
and I learned surrender
from a shattered heart,
the nuances of existence
in works of art…

Never was I one
for worldly fame,
never was I made
to be easily tamed…

for the moon
is my songstress,
the wind my chime,
the trees my mantra
my rhythm divine..

imperfection flows
through the seams
of my skin,
Yet I have found
great resilience
abides within…

For I have coalesced with
the all-seeing mind,
In one accord with humankind…

©AllysoAlly2021

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Story-tellers…

“I now see how owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.”
― Brené Brown

We are all story-tellers
accomplishing our truth,
regaling memories
sweet parts of our youth..

And scattered
in stardust
our hopes are laid bare,
written in scripts of life,
spoken in silent prayers…

Some stories are melancholy,
wearing heart-break
on our sleeves,
inviting entrance
into sacred places
of grief…

many are songs
that bring a sparkle
to the eyes,
reminding us
of blessings
we gladly eulogize..

and when we utter
inadequacies
exiled to the catacombs,
we release the misery
gathered in our bones…

courageous hearts
are chronicles of
abiding faith,
outspoken heroes,
and in their light, we bathe..

So let joy linger
in our hearts
and in our breath,
so that we can become fearless
even unto death…

©AllysoAlly2021