Bride of the ocean…

Have you ever seen a beached jellyfish sadly waiting like an unrecognizable lump, trapped by sand, hoping the tide will return her to glory…

I found a jellyfish
stranded
and heavy,
motionlessly waiting,
with sand in her belly…

Imprisoned
and helpless,
gasping for her life,
almost forsaken,
her suffering denied…

like a wretched foreigner on alien land,
abandoned
rejected,
choked by hostile sand…

waiting to get back
to the liberation of the seas,
and dive into blue waters,
knowing
she’d be guaranteed,
the freedom of the ocean
away from all harm,
wholeheartedly
embraced,
by the most loving arms…

then the ocean rescued her, from her prison of sand
and beneath the surface
I glimpsed
a wonderland,
as she moved
with the breakers,
back to her fold,
no longer oppressed,
but completely whole…

dancing in the light of the incoming tide,
her train glowing
like a radiant bride…

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©Ally2019

Lost…

“Live one day at a time. Keep your attention in present time. Have no expectations. Make no judgments. And give up the need to know why things happen as they do. Give it up!”
― Caroline Myss, Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can: A Practical Programme for Healing Body, Mind and Spirit

Sometimes I get lost
out beyond the tracks,
heartache intensifies,
there’s no going back…
to expectations
or beliefs,
once held,
confessions of grief
my substance melds…

derailed by sorrow,
for it’s taken my life
in the midst of darkness
I’m dead inside…

and I surrender to Providence,
what must be,
acquiescing to the Universe
and what I can’t see…

hoping that dawn
will incinerate the pain,
pluck me
from the terror
of deadly domains…

Shine on my countenance
rewrite the script,
save me from the psychosis of feeling adrift…

©Ally2019

 

Grief’s Quagmire…

Day Eighteen…

“No one knows what has been taken from you
When the silence of absence deepens.”
― John O’Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

In a riverbed
flooded with tears,
caked with mud up to her ears…
she wallowed
and squelched
unable to stand,
in a morass of sorrow
she’d been damned…

And the sediment oozed, unraveling her might,
she’d been sucked under
by hostile blight…
she sloshed and waded
gasping for air,
screaming out from this boggy lair…

Longing
to escape
the quicksands of time,
she groveled in
unyielding grime…

And from
grief’s quagmire,
she watched the skies,
muddied,
besmirched,
she eulogized….
calling out in utter distress,
into dark mud
she coalesced…

The cool sludge
eased
her ghastly pain,
and sacred tears
merged
with healing rains….

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Evanescence

“These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase”
― Evanescence, My Immortal.

I’m drawn into light
the intensity of blue,
letting it wash
over me
and call me into view…
To allow particles
to evaporate,
evanescing
in stillness
of a perfect escape… No longer remembering
the terror
of defeat,
just a little soul searching
to choreograph
relief…

©Ally2019

 

Mystical immersions…

“My heart is so small
it’s almost invisible.
How can You place
such big sorrows in it?
“Look,” He answered,
“your eyes are even smaller,
yet they behold the world.”
― Rumi

Broken in pieces,
on the dark side of the moon,
just a cacophony of irrepressible tunes…
My song is over
the crowds have gone home, shattered, 
bludgeoned,
exposed to the bone… In crypts of longing,
I recounted my fears,
of sacred ceremonies
of sanguine tears… Basking in the resplendence of
Illuminating light,
bent forwards,
I surrendered to the night… Reconciling the struggle of my soul’s journey,
to mystical immersions,
of being set free…

©Ally2019

 

Colors of Misery…

“The Uses Of Sorrow (In my sleep I dreamed this poem)
Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.”
― Mary Oliver, Thirst

I can’t find the words to say, to make this pain go away…
the landscape is bleak,
my breath hurts
I dare not speak…

Or spill out sounds, tremors stain the ground,
and silence resounds
in ambient vows…

where tinctures of broken dreams,
paint me in dark extremes…

mysterious blessings trawl,
submerged
by darkened squalls,
of indigo emotions
unbalanced devotions,
unspeakable doubts,
supplications
called out…

and mutterings of dusky woes,
causing me to hold repose, in shadows of composure
abandoned by the exposure
of monochrome
sympathy…

instead,
I’ll bask in the misery…
colored by leaden seas,
at rest until
love
intervenes!

©Ally2019

 

Fallen behind…

“These pains you feel are messengers. Listen to them.”
― Rumi, The Essential Rumi

Fallen behind
insecure
words won’t speak
behind closed doors…

In cloistered silence
obstacles shout
unhinged chaos
wounds leak out…

I descend again
into
gathered breath
hush my mind
my fears confessed…

disrobed
by strange
mystical states
tumbled from orbit
dreams translate…

Walking through sludge
buried by fatigue
surrendered again
to grief’s debris…

Learning
to trust
silence,
the landscape
within,
when emotions babble
affliction rescinds…

©Ally2019