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Still on the journey..

“Love says ‘I am everything.’ Wisdom says ‘I am nothing.’ Between the two, my life flows.”― Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, I Am That

I always wanted to be someone-etched out in beauty and intelligence, written in stars.
To be noticed in the hallowed-hallways of time…
instead I wore the garments of suffering, eaten alive by failure,
I stumbled forward on an invisible journey, hemorrhaging fear, awakening in shadowlands, yet constantly occupied by mystical light, guided into atmospheres of imagination, soul symphonies, high octaves of love…

It was a gradual letting go, fingers finally unclenched, surrendering to the life that desired to play itself out, the slow-release of delinquent narrations.
I recognized the small-self, not in condemnatory overtones, but with love and forgiveness. I learned to observe the ravenous ego, that feasted on compliments, needing approval, craving to be known…requiring flattery to breathe!

Though I have spoken penance to my failures, rewriting the script, I think I may always suffer the voices of disapproval, as they rasp in the silence, their off-key rhetoric catching my breath, bringing me to a momentary halt…they are curves of learning!

On looking deeply into my reflection, the little girl appeared more balanced than the one I became…so I put aside any narration I had made up, or was told, and reminded myself that I have always been the breath of the Divine
and my only requirement is love…

I have attempted this balancing act between being nothing and being everything, and I am gently learning to flow in each direction…
and yet I am still in need of further instructions!

©AllysoAlly2021

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I am an unknown introvert who desires to touch the world with a little bit of magic...

4 thoughts on “Still on the journey..

  1. Thanks for revealing the origin of the quote. I just love it. It says so much! If you go inside and hear your breath, feel your heart and lungs and sit with your emotions good and bad you will find the beauty that we can see from the outside. You will also experience how you are made of star dust in every cell.

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