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58 days under house arrest…

“Your acts of kindness are iridescent wings of divine love, which linger and continue to lift up others long after your sharing.”
― Rumi

jack the dronga

Yesterday I read in the news that the richest people on the planet have become richer during this pandemic. Then I went outside and saw a man scratching in bins for something to eat.

Nothing makes sense to me, it hasn’t for a long time.
We are losing our livelihoods while some are gaining the whole world.
My mother used to say to me that “the world has gone mad” and that was a good many years ago.
She left post-war Britain to live through 2 wars in Africa.
Has anything changed since then? Are we all crashing towards something more beautiful? Are we leaving this horrible brutality that we have become accustomed to behind? I really hope so.
Are these the labor pains of the age of Aquarius, or am I just a dreamer?

As the sun quiets and even pauses for a time and the tectonic plates slowly drift, I hope that it’s the jolt the world needs to wake up and remember that the abundance belongs to us all.
Where did we come from anyway and where are we returning to?
We can’t take it with us!

I have never feared dying from a virus, until now, and I’ve had pneumonia and been hospitalized with breathing difficulties caused by asthma.

Our humanity is being threatened. My hairdresser can’t work, my friend who owns a health store can’t pay the rent, domestic workers can’t feed their families, my son who works in a restaurant is doing deliveries for a fraction of his salary, another friend who plays gigs at markets has no money and relies on the kindness of friends, and our Airbnb won’t be getting guests anytime soon.

Is this the new normal, how do we survive this thing?

A fisherman got arrested the other day for not having the correct permit, and they fined someone for not wearing a mask in public. It feels quite surreal when we think of what we have become, how we have morphed into inmates under house arrest.

Do the powers that be enjoy watching people slowly lose hope and starve?

It is gut-wrenching to see mile-long queues of people waiting all day for food parcels, while Kim Kardashian shows off a freezer full of every imaginable flavor of ice-cream and loads of sprinkles that some may never get to taste in their lifetime. It seems wicked in a world where there is plenty to go around.

Kids in our township schools do not have internet or computers so their education is on hold and they roam the streets losing hope by the day.

My musician friend said not too long ago that “he longs for the days when the world made sense and we walked tall in grace.”

I myself have only survived because I take my instructions from ducks who skim across glassy lagoons and butterflies who waft past my face.
These creatures take the weight off my shoulders, they lift me out of myself, those who have come from their own dark place.

There’s a heaviness around, as people trudge through day to day living, hoping for that happy ending that we have watched so many times in movies. I for one am counting on it.

Maybe that’s why I love super-heroes and saviors who put their own appetites aside to assist the destitute in times of need.

I’m afraid I’ve been watching too much news lately. I’m like the speculator who waited for the world to change and become kinder, like the watched kettle that never boils, and I’m growing weary.

My mood ebbs and flows like a bipolar tide allowing me to crash and rise with it.

This morning a bird came to remind me that he doesn’t reap or sow or gather into barns, yet he is still fed, while enjoying crumbs of my carrot cake.
As we rode home, I spied the lilies of the fields, dressed better than King Solomon in all his splendor and peace returned.

But I’m human and the weight of gravity pulls me down into an abyss of fear at times, it obstructs my heart rhythm and keeps me from believing in my higher self.

As I lay awake at 1am this morning, thinking out loud and praying in the dark, I hoped that the sighting of the new moon would bring a brighter new day for every earthling…

Have a Blessed Eid, those who celebrate this festival…

 

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I am an unknown introvert who desires to touch the world with a little bit of magic...

6 thoughts on “58 days under house arrest…

  1. Love this part very much …. I myself have only survived because I take my instructions from ducks who skim across glassy lagoons and butterflies who waft past my face.
These creatures take the weight off my shoulders, they lift me out of myself, those who have come from their own dark place.

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