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Dear Reader…

“We are travelers on a cosmic journey, stardust, swirling and dancing in the eddies and whirlpools of infinity. Life is eternal. We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share. This is a precious moment. It is a little parenthesis in eternity.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

dragonfly fairy

Dear Reader,
(I apologize in advance if it’s too long) …….
This is a dedication to some of the bravest and most authentic Earthlings I have ever known…
On this day the 2nd of January 2020, I have an admission to make, it’s been hard! Some days I’ve had to scrape the very bottom of the barrel to find something to be happy about, especially over the so-called “Festive Season”.

It is the very simplest things that make me happy, like today I saw a *dragonfly for the first time in my garden.
If I was Kim Kardashian, I would get 6 million likes just for pouting my lips in the mirror, and it would only take a nanosecond (I’m way too old and not pouty enough for that, sorry)

In a world where being popular means owning something flashy, being wealthy or having a Degree, I have failed miserably but I’ve come to understand that it is okay to just be a storyteller or a wannabe poet.
I’ve totally worn my heart on my sleeve, and it has come at a very high cost, it has made me incredibly vulnerable. (not that that’s a bad thing)
Brene Brown said that “Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable, it means to show up and be seen, to ask for what you need, to talk about how you’re feeling, to have the HARD conversations.”

How many of us hide all the difficult stuff under the carpet and pretend to be someone we are not?
My life has pretty much been cracked wide open, what more do I have to lose?
So, does this mean you will like me more or less if I tell you that I have been crying and in a heap because life is so bloody hard at times?

I read a book years ago that impacted my life greatly, it’s called “Why I’m afraid to tell you who I am”….(because you might not like me and it’s all I have). It is written by a Jesuit Priest called John Powell. It is very short and an easy read and I recommend to anyone who feels that they do not belong.
Today when I went to look for it, it was on the top shelf of my bookcase.

So, belonging for me doesn’t actually mean being in a group per se. I think we should all have a sense of belonging to this race we call human, even the good the bad and the ugly.
I spent years in Church trying to fit in and guess what, I never did because I couldn’t speak the language and I questioned everything, and I still do?
I also tried to belong when I was a child in school but I was never the popular one, not even in my own family. I think the dog was the only one who thought I was freaking awesome!

We are all connected, like it or not, but we’ve just forgotten what it means. So, on coming to this Earth school we have to relearn connection and awaken into something so wonderous it is almost beyond our imagination. It takes work people and a whole lot of surrendering!
For we are spiritual beings having a human experience, we are sparks of the Divine, made with love, and we have every resource available to us in order to shine.
Ram Dass said, “we are all just walking each other home.”

I’ve been afraid for so long to speak out my beliefs, for fear of rejection.
Many may look at me funny, but hey, aren’t we on an exciting journey of discovery together, a quest to brave new worlds, seeking to set aside our judgments and prejudices, can we do that? Can we have those hard conversations?

I want to be brave enough to tell you who I am and if you don’t like me I should love myself enough to be able to handle it.
Please don’t pity me though, I have been given a gift more precious than can be bought or bargained for. It is a light that cannot go out, a love that never fails, an eternity I get to spend with every single beautiful Earthling.
Here’s the thing, we all come from the light, so we all get to return to the light, no exclusions, no holds barred!!

*The dragonfly symbolism carries with it the wisdom of change and learning through experience. It’s the symbol of joy and lightness, and having a deep connection with your thoughts and emotions…..

Thank you for reading this far and thank you for taking this journey with me, no matter how treacherous it may seem, it’s the authentic light-filled souls who keep me from falling…

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22 thoughts on “Dear Reader…

  1. brave soul you touch my every fiber of life with your confession and admission, saying what I want to but am so afraid to. I cannot be that open and vulnerable yet, honestly it scares me. But Ally I so admire and love you for being so open and sharing your grief, disillusion, pain and strife with us. It is easy to write happy but meaningless words. It is easy to leave a comment on a happy post. No one wants to hear about how our heart breaks every single day missing the one person we need so badly to hear again. one day I hope to be as brave as you, so please continue to share your heart. no pity or sympathy just a deep appreciation of all you have to offer.

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    1. Thank you, Gina. You are one of those light-filled souls who keep me from falling. Your encouragement is a beacon of light to me. Sometimes when I want to give up I feel something greater within me, motivating me to keep on keeping on… Lots of love forever. xxx

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      1. I have done much the same Ally, and am pulled back by these unseen forces sent by guardian angels just when I had given up hope. It is a sign and I know you receive the same. Warm hugs and lots of love always.

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  2. I’ve listened to Brene Brown so much…and love the truth that Being brave is being vulnerable ❤ Thanks for being brave Ally..for being real in this journey and offering up so much beauty in the process. No pity hear, just admiration. ❤

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  3. Thank you Ally for expressing from your heart and soul. You have also shared my favorite quotes!
    Let the unfolding continue through the highs and lows. Keep connecting. Take courage. Be you.
    From my heart to yours. 💕

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