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Crying on the inside

“Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.”
― Mark Twain

a river of tears

Yesterday I went to report my son’s estate to the Estate Officer,
and she gruffly asked me why I had taken so long?
I gasped,
and choked on my words……

What I should have said to her was….
“I couldn’t get up each morning,
my world was blown apart,
my life completely unraveled,
here’s my shattered heart!”

Instead I said
“I don’t know”
and I tried to explain,
that grief is overwhelming
it debilitates the brain.

My body shook when I wrote down
“estate late beloved son”
she was unsympathetic
and I couldn’t
wait to run,
into streets
of understanding,
to scream out the words
“I’ve lived in hell for seven months
and life has become a blur…”

I really thought
she’d understand
what grief can reduce one to.
In times of outrageous sorrow;
I doubted I’d get through…

Why is kindness deficient
in a world of despair?

All I needed was concern and some tender loving care…….



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14 thoughts on “Crying on the inside

  1. It would seem this person’s demeanor is better suited to a position
    with the Dept. of Motor Vehicles, as she is so short on empathy.
    I am saddened that an already difficult task was made more difficult for you by her.

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  2. Oh my gosh! I cannot believe that women was so callas and unkind!!! Unfreakingbelievable!!! Man do I wish I could find over there and confront that unfeeling creature!!! Ally, I’m so sorry this happened to you!!! This has to the the hardest thing a mother ever had to go through and it staggers my imagination and makes me incredibly angry that a grieving mother would ever be treated in such a manner!!! Love and hugs sweet lady❣️😘😘😘🌹xoxoxo

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    1. Thank you, Natalie, I really appreciate your understanding and love…
      I came home and cried for the rest of the day and then of course “Heaven” turned up with signs and wonders to astonish me all over again. My Angel guides reassured me it would be okay.. xoxoxoxoxoxo


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